Thursday, May 6, 2010

~ This Is My Temporary Home~

I watched the Country Music Awards and I was so delighted that Carrie Underwood won "Entertainer of the Year"  I just thought it couldn't have happened to a nicer girl. She is super talented and a Christian.  One of the things that I love most about her is that she stands up for Jesus.  She isn't embarrassed to tell a guy hands off I'm saving myself for marriage.  I loved her song "Jesus Take the Wheel"  it is my ring on my phone.  I often get people asking me about it and it gives me a chance to share my love of Jesus.  Then I heard her sing "This Is My Temporary Home"  I loved it!!! when you listen to the words it will really touch your heart.  I like to listen to it when I am walking.  In the song the chorus says;  This is just a stop on the way to where I'm going, I'm not afraid because I know, this is my temporary home.

It started me thinking about Jesus in Luke 22:31 "Simon Simon Satan has asked to sift you like wheat.  But I have prayed for you Simon, that your faith may not fail.  And when you have turned back strengthen your brothers".  I fell away from the church for a time.  I think that I always loved God deep in my heart, but I wasn't living every single day for him.  I was living for my husband, my children, my friends and my things.  I had forgotten that is my temporary home. I had forgotten that Jesus had passed all of His powers unto us that had the faith as small as a mustard seed. I let my Lord down. I had forgotten that He was praying for me not to fail in my faith.

I did fail in my faith because my eyes were not on Him they were on me.  It took my getting lung cancer to realize it.  Sometimes when you refuse to listen to God He has to take you down.  There is nothing that will open a dialog up with God like cancer does.  All of a sudden you have so much to say to Him. You scream out in sheer terror, not knowing if you are going to die or not.  You can't seem to sleep and your total focus is on this disease that is eating your body up from the inside out. Sure you have heard of the big "C" but you can never really know what it is like until you have it.  You face death head on and trust me when I tell you it isn't something you want to face alone.  You want to have Jesus right there next to you.  I know that God heard my cries.  When I heard his voice it was so clear that I actually looked around for who was talking to me.  As soon as I heard Him say "The Breath of Heaven Is Holding You In His Arms"  I knew that everything was going to be fine. I could breathe again.  I also had called The Abundant Life Prayer Group with Oral Roberts Ministry.  They were wonderful and Richard Roberts prayed with me through the television using his hands as my point of contact.  I learned through their ministry that our God is a good God and that He would heal me.  The beautiful thing is that He did. I am so blessed by the Lord.

Even the hell of chemo therapy couldn't dim the light that Jesus had brought back to my soul. I can honestly tell you that one particularily hard day in chemo the Holy Spirit came down on me and I was overtaken with the Joy of the Lord.  I would spend that day praying through my chemo in the spirit.  While that poison was cursing through my veins the Holy Spirit had enveloped me and took me through it.  For those of you who have read my earlier blogs, I put a picture up with my bald chemo head.  My daughter told me that I was glowing.  She asked me if it was the chemo or the Holy Spirit.

Now I am on the right track with my Lord and I am happier than I have been in a very long time.  Now I do know that this is just a stop on the way to where I'm going and I am not afraid because I know this is my temporary home.


I really like Carrie Underwood too! Great post I backslid too maybe there is hope for me!!

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